Wednesday, August 24, 2011


That's how I feel right now.

Simply helpless.

Today was Emma's follow-up appointment with the pediatrician for her headaches. She gave her headache journal for copies to be made. No pattern to her headaches. No relief from the new medication. No answers. The nurse is scheduling an appointment with a neurologist for a consult and a CT scan at Children's Hospital. I didn't think I'd ever have to meet with neurologists there ever again! Nothing against the hospital or doctors, all were wonderful, but some people you never hope to meet professionally just because it means something isn't right, you know? We had our fill already.

I admit I'm worried. I tell myself there is nothing to be worried about, I've seen a CT scan performed and know it's fast and simple. But still. I worry that there is something wrong. I worry that it's something simple and we're missing it. I worry about how we're going to pay for all this.

And helpless. I feel so helpless because I can't make her pain go away.


  1. Christine, I'm so sorry that you and Emma are going through this. It' so hard to give this kind of thing over to doctors (though it sounds like you've been down this road before). Good luck to you and I hope you get some answers soon! XOXO

  2. I will be thinking of you and Emma, Christine. It is the worst feeling to be helpless in the face of a child's suffering.

  3. Many prayers and thoughts coming your way (for you & Miss Emma). I hope you find what you need to make her feel better. Sending a virtual hug.

  4. Best wishes, Christine - I know having a child ill is the worst thing ever. Hopefully it is indeed nothing and she will grow out of it. I was hospitalized as a kid for severe stomach pains, diagnosed with all kinds of stuff (diabetes, for one, but I wasn't diabetic). In the end they decided it was "growing pains" and I did grow out of it eventually. Nevertheless, it was scary for my parents.