Right now, I'm lying in my bed with Sophie, waiting for her to go to sleep. I have two blog posts to write, one for this one & one for Adventures in Babyfooding. I actually have one of them started on my laptop, waiting for me.
Emma is in her room, unhappy & crying because I didn't come straight back to her room after changing Sophie's diaper. We were making cards for our family for Easter, and birthday card for my visiting aunt. I made a birthday card, and she was working on her own card when I left her room. I was intending to return, if it matters. After changing Sophie I got her into her pajamas, turned on my computer and plugged in my phone to download photos I had saved for the blog posts, and quickly checked my email. I wrapped Emma's birthday gift, and added a couple new items to their Easter basket stash.
I feel like there isn't enough of me to go around, and I'm getting frustrated. My own needs get pushed further and further back, and I'm so worried about Emma feeling neglected that I am afraid to do things with Sophie. I can't be a good mother that way.
And I have no idea what to do.
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I feel like that way too often. It's hard. I wish the kids knew how much I want to be with them. We just came back from spring break and my kids kept telling me how much they liked having my "full" attention. I wish I could do it everyday (I spent a crazy week prewriting posts and doing work so I could be with them this week, but they don't get that).
ReplyDeleteSending you a huge hug! You are a good Mama!
I have a Good Friday blog all planned out... a spiritual expression of being amazing, etc. And my day goes to Hell. I feel like my son and I are on two different planets. I feel I will never be able to spend enough time with him or treat him exactly as I want to. Your blog post is in perfect alignment with my emotions today... and well, as one mother to another... you're doing AWESOME! Look forward to reading what you've got to share next.
ReplyDeleteHi Christine, Your not alone..I feel like there are not enough hours in the day to get "Me" time. Just remember that you have to take a few moments for yourself so that you can be great for your kids. I don't know you, but I can see from your posts that you are a Great Mom!! **HuGs**
ReplyDeleteThe mantra I now live my life by is 'I'm doing the best I can with what I've got and that's good enough'. Children don't appreciate most things we do for them at the time. It's not until as adults we look back and realise what our parents were trying to do for us.
ReplyDeleteMy 3 main rules for myself are
1 don't make promises I'm not prepared to keep
2 don't make threats I'm not prepared to carry out
3 reassure my family how much I love them at least once a day.
The fact you feel your not enough, tells me how wonderful a mum you really are. Keep going hon xx
have a peek at www.heatherbestel.com she's my feel good fairyand where I learnt my mantra from xx
I can feel the sadness in our heart through your words :( We cannot be all things to our children at all times and if we try we will be exhasuted. Just do your best to be an intentional mom, not a perfect mom. Just that your heart wants to be so much to them tells me you are an AWESOME mom and doing a much better job than you give yourself credit for.
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