Showing up

I haven't written much this week, I know. I just haven't been feeling inspired. I read a quote this morning, the only useful thing yet from a newsletter I didn't know I was signing up for right before I clicked the unsubscribe link - something along the lines of "don't wait for greatness to happen, just show up." So, this is me, showing up.

Hi there :)

I've spent a lot of time this week just being "mom." Em still hasn't been feeling 100% better, and to be honest I haven't been feeling well lately at all. In the evenings when I get home from work, there is dinner to be made, cleaning up to be done, and time to be spent with the girls. And, I miss my husband. I can function on my own - the garbage gets taken to the street for pickup, I (mostly) have gotten up on time to get Emma to school, the dogs are getting fed and watered and walked -but it's so much nicer to have him here in person. It's been fourteen years and we still enjoy each other's company. I like sitting with him, talking to him, watching a show with him, sleeping with his arm around me. I love when the girls play with him. I love their laughter together. I love when Sophie runs over to give him a hug and kiss goodnight. Yes, I can function, but functioning isn't being a family. His days at home are even more special now.

I started a new book on my Kindle on my lunch break today. Les Miserables. I actually have the paperback version of this book, but have found that long books like this are easier read on e-readers. It cuts down on the intimidation factor. I'm still in the beginning section, all about M. Myriel, but am really enjoying the book. It's easier to read than I thought it would be. Also, some of the lines are just timeless - they apply to our 21st century lives just as much as they applied to people in the 1800s. "M. Myriel had to undergo the fate of every newcomer in a little town, where there are many mouths which talk, and very few heads which think." Also, "True or false, that which is said of men often occupies as important a place in their lives, and above all in their destinies, as that which they do." M. Victor Hugo was a wise man.